im actually sad :'(

assalamualaikum . haihh ! sedih eh mawar ? sedih laahh . but whyy ? hmm , i have no idea about this . banyak bende yang mengkusutkan kepala ni sebenarnya :'/ tapi , nak story pasal satu ni je . sedihh sangat . nak tahu tak pasal ape ? pasal ni haaaaaa :'(

alaa , risau nyaa . nak jadi king ! tapi , im afraid that cikgu yang on duty scouts kat sini tak active :'( macam mane nii . and lagi satu , mesti rindu gila dekat team Husel D: dekat Selangor's scouters D: my beloved pemimpin . awhh :( i might miss cikgu Sahrom who gave me a lot of memories . tolong mawar macam macam . i might miss my scout schoolmates , who support in things yang mawar buat . i might miss Semashur's scouters batch 0913 . because , diorang yang paling rapat dengan aku . Anyal , Alip , Izwan , Ishep , Nurril , Faez , Azrul , k Olin , k Su , k Fina , k Amy and semua semua tu lahh . aduhh , mawar jadi Ahli Pengakap Negeri Sembilan lah pulakk :'/ dah lahh tak kenal sapa sapa . ohh kenal sorang je . pelot ! kenal time kat Jambori Terengganu last year . itu pun tak pasti dia daerah ape -.- 

huhh ! acano nii D': tensi nyaaa . takpe lahh . doakan sayaaaa :( kayy lahh got to go . Assalamualaikum :')

Last Entry 2012 !

assalamualaikum . haha . rajin pulaa nak meng-update nya punn . haha ! LOL . okayy ! 2013 gonna be tomorrow . huishh ! cuak , takut ~ ehh , samalah tu -.- hmm , cane ni . mwar kat sekolah baru . takut lahh . takde kawan yang kenal . Ya Allah , awkward nya . nanti , siapa lah orang pertama yang akan tegur mawar ehh ? :/ huhh ! Ya Allah tenangkan lah hati ku . okayokay . 

hmm , semalam , baru balik daripada kampung . best ! itu destinasi terakhir saya lah kot for this year ! hmm , nak tahu tak ? kiteorang main bola . kejar kejar . kemas kemas . jalan jalan . macam macam lahh . best sangatt ! gonna miss it ;'( 
and , 2012 ! macam macam dah berlaku . pahit . manis . masam . tawar . semua tu . nak kena erase dah . kena bukak buku baru :) so then , i wish that everything gonna be better . i wish , no more tears . i wish to be a good muslimah *prayforme* . i wish to have a nice friend . i wish that i have no bad people in my life . i wish to be a great people . i wish to be an excellent person . i wish that everybody gonna be happy by my side . i wish that you wont forget me . please :( and , i wish that my wish come true . InsyaAllah :') 

some picture of mine :'D okay lahh . got to go ! Assalamualaikum :D

Things About Me !

holla ! Assalamualaikum :D everybody in the house ? haha ! LOL -.- okay , based on the title . Things about me , right ? haha , asal bajet sangat ni . bukannya ada orang nak tahu puuunn ~ haha xD okayy . nak tahu tak ? okay , nak lah nakkk ~ 

1 : im cute , adorable , beautiful , etc . haha ! bukan mwar yang cakap but simsimi xP

2 : im loyal . once , people stole my heart . i dont want him to give it back ! i'll kill you xD

3 : im not a kind of person yang suka merajuk lama lama . because , i was expecting , orang akan naik muak bila kita buat macam tu , kann ? so , korang jangan merajuk lama lama tauu . tak baik untuk kesihatan xD

4 : im friendly . haha , but depends jugak lahh . kadang kadang , memilih jugak . mawar akan tegur orang yang mawar tak kenal bila mawar ada kawan . if not , harapan je lah nak mawar tegur ~ 

5 : im gangster . haha . i was like my mom time dia muda muda dulu . tak tahu kenapa . tapi , sekarang , my mom baik sangat . i love her very much :*

6 : i love kids . mawar memang suka budak budak if diorang tak suka menangis . tak dapat ni , nangis . tak dapat tu , nangis . rasa nak smack down je -.-

7 : i love decorating . its my life style . tak tahu kenapa . if anything yang ada kena mengena dengan menghias , ibu will call me asking for help . untung kan , dapat anak macam mawar xD haha ! 

8 : i love singing very much ! i love music . but , bukan music yang membingitkan telinga . yang macam rock rock tu . haihh ! tak suka ._____.

9 : i love to berkawan dengan orang yang suka buat lawak . because , they will ceriakan my day if im not in mood . thanks kawan :*

10 : tak suka baca novel . penat -.- nak tahu cerita tak ? mawar pernah baca novel with 345pages tau . but , mawar ambik masa a year and 2 months to finish that novel . haha ! gempak kann ? tu pun , kawan mawar paksa baca . kalau tak , jangan harap lah nak baca -.-

11 : i love photography . awhhhh ! cant live without camera :'(

12 : i love "jalan jalan makan angin" . best korangg ! makan angin can make your day ! i bet you , try lah pergi jalan jalan wit family ke kawan kawan ke . mesti bestt :D

13 : i love food :3 haha , makan makan makan . its my routine . tapi , tak gemuk gemuk punn . haha ! alhamdulillah lah kann :)

14 : i love youu :* haha . 

15 : i love being childish . nampak comel tauu . cube korang buat . mesti nak buat lagii . haha xD

16 : i love playing rugbyy ! mwehehe . terkejut tak ? haha . best lah main rugby . i like it very muchh . it's a kind of sports yang lasak . best .*thumbs up*

17 : i love haters . you know why ? because , haters will motivate us with their words . so , positive thinking guys :'>

18 : i love Adidas . haha , tak tahu kenapa . maybe , ayah dah treat dari kecik kan , sikit sikit Adidas . sikit sikit Adidas --'

19 : i love chocolate ! huishh , sedapp woo . not all lah . cadbury is in my heart :p

20 : i love chatting . chatting is fun bebeyhh ! 

21 : i hate provocation . it seems like being an idiot . stop provocation . say no to it ! 

22 : i hate lizard , coachkroach , mouse , and things yang seumpama dengan nya . wekk ! geli .

23 : i love eating but belum sempat nak belajar masak lagi . hehe . nanti mawar belajar ehh ?

24 : i love kokoi . she's cute :*

25 : i HATE smokers . watchout with smokers everyone . they'll kill you in silent .

26 : my birth date :')

huhh ! penat type . kalau boleh terima kelebihan and kekurangan mawar . i might be happy . but if not , "x" button please . thankyouuu ! Assalamualaikum :')

Trouble is a friend :') sedate !

assalamualaikum . its been a long time tak update blog ni . haha . holiday right ? i had a very awesome holiday for this year . i know , ramai je yang tak pergi holiday with family cause of certain reason right ? maybe , parents busy , takde masa , kerja kahwin and ape ape je lah kan . and , sorry , if buat korang terasa with my words :) okayy . even happy pun . there must be sadness right ? everyone should know about this . 

Allah telah berfirman dalam al-Quran bahawa dalam setiap kegembiraan , pasti ada kesedihan . manakala , bagi setiap kesedihan , Allah janjikan kegembiraan . In shaa Allah :') 

so , kita sebagai hamba-Nya , kena bersyukur with what we have . jangan asyik nak merungut if things goes wrong . okayy ? be tough everybody ! :D okayy .

My main purpose of making this post is to warn anonymous servant of God . pleaseee !  avoid yourself from being envy to others . stop condemnation . stop disapprobation . stop imprecation . stop everything ! no one loves to be condemned ! even , ME . i also hate being condemned . its hurt ! please understand people's feeling . 

humans are often guilty of the offense . so , do forgive people mistakes WITHOUT condemning them .  really hope to see some changes in the future . all people are entitled to joy even for awhile . so , thats all . berharap agar semua yang membaca akan mendapat hidayah . In shaa Allah :')

Happiness OR Nightmaree :O

assalamualaikum . holla everybodyyyy ! :D 

based on the picture above we can conclude that it was a picture of joy right ? so, the picture below was a picture that shows the sadness of a person :/

this is what im thinkingg off ! urghhh . i felt like im dying thinking about this sorts of thing . *madness* i felt doubt :'/ much much muchhhhh ! :'( i dont know whyy . im asking for forgiveness from Him , who knows everything about me including what im feeling right now  . i was just scared that this things will affecting my dreams but i dont know how to stop it ! i admit , that i really want this for a long time ago . and , readers , you should know that i cant stop thinking about THIS thing . i want this but i know it was a big mistake for doing this crazy actionn .*telekup muka dengan bantal* . i do love this thing very very very much . but , i know this is not the best way that i can do . i've made an elephant mistake . *jokes*  means , i've made a GIGANTIC mistake :'( ohhh mom ! help your daughter please ~ i dont know how to solve this problem . 

i just wanna be like this little girl with that blooming reddish rose , who was happy all the time , as her beautiful name given by her adored parents :'( by the way , i think that i need to have a rest now . sorry for making this entry "hambar" ~  guys , pray for me . i need my dreams come true :') so now , i wanna have a very tight sleep and searching for peace-ness . so then , assalamualaikum and im asking for an apology for things that i've done . byee :')

absolutelyy confusedd :'/

assalamualaikum peeps ! 

confused ehh title nyaa . waitt ehh ? dont know what to tell . tu lahh , confused dah ni . jap jap , fikir mawar . fikir ~ and finally ! mawar LUPAAAA :( HAHA ! biarlahh . and , tahu takk ? cuti ni kann , asyik confused --> fikir --> termenung --> malas ingat --> lupaa :'/ entah , i dont know whyyy . btw , this holiday i felt like everything was messy . arghh ! serabut . dengan bende ni , bende tu , bende ni , bende tu . serabut tak ? serabut kann ~ tu lahh . jangan baca . buat dont know je , entry yang meng-confuse-kan korang ni . dah dah . balik sekarang . blahh dari blog aku . sekarang ! SEKARANGG ! eishh , budak ni , tak faham bahasa betul . sekarang lah -.-

eii , ngeng nye entry ni . actually , nak cakap yang i'm confused pasal banyak bende . wanna know something ? ada budak ni , dia maki mawar . hamun mawar . lelaki tau . dia rasa macam he's the perfect man ever in this world . mwehehe . LOL ! tak lawak kayy . entah lahh . i know its my fault but tak payah lah nak besar kan benda yang sebesar zahrah . kann ? saja je nak buat suasana jadi diiinggggginnnn ~ bosan ahh , hidup asyik kena boom :'/ nak nangis rasaaa . makkkk :'( and , ada jugak pasal rumah , in A YEAR ! ada lahh dalam 3 rumah mawar pindah . penat tahu penatt . packing barang masuk rumah ni , unpack . then , packing lagi , pergi rumah ni pulak . unpack pulakk lagi . okayy takpe , mawar still saboooooorr ~ bila cakap nak pindah rumah ni pulakk . aku hangenn ~ kan dahh jadi aku . sorry sorry . *TER-tak-sopan-pulaa* hihiww . so , packing lagi . sampai rumah yang ni , unpack lahh kan . tengah tengah unpackk tu , betul ke , kita nak duduk sini . kate next year nak pindah lagi ~ heyyy ! adaa makan sup lalat ni kanngggg . PENATT LAHH AYAHHH KU SAYANGGG ~ 

and , the latest one , this is NOT about confused lah . ni aboutt refused . ehh ehh ? ape nii  mawar . takdelahh kidding . ni abouttt angraaaii . angry lahh . okayy , like this ehh . not like thatt . mawar ! serious kay . serious ! okayy , diamm ! macam ni , actually , Jumaat bersamaan 7 hari bulan 12 tahun 2012 , mawar sepatutnyaa , hangout with my primary school's friends .  weihh , sapa taknak gather balik after 3 years terpisahh :'( kami buddyz , kami takkan terpisah ! "ku bersamamuuuuuu ~" haha xD okayy , i told my dad about this 4days backwards . betul ke ayat aku ? biarlahh . siapa berani betulkann ? bantai japgi . haha . JOKES ! 4days before the gathering day lahh kann . okayy then , im happy with the news . my dad bagi . dia bersetuju dengan semua cadangan sayaaa . hahaha ! so , im crazily excited lah kann because my dad nak hantar me . okayy , on friday the gathering suppose to be held right ? so , on wednesday , i try na ask my dad agaiinnn . and suddenly dia macam marah marah . not marah lah but dia macam malas hantar . taknak bekerjasama dengan mawar . mawar ape lagi , nangis ahh . sedih kott ! they really hope that i could be there but im the one who spoiled it ! SORRY korangg . sedihh gilaa ahh wa cakap luuu :'( then , on jumaat my dad kate , jom lahhh . kate nak pergi jumpaa kawan kawan . mawarr yang jyeahhhhhhhhh ! siap siap lah kan . otw to Sunway Pyramid tu kann . ohh lupe , kiteorang nak gather kat sunwayy . okayy continue , jalan stertorous weihh . stertorous ape ? stuffy tahuu ? okayokayy . sesakk . i mean jamm . okayy , ambik rotii weihh . hahah xD LOL . diorang balik 5.45pm cam tu . jamm tu sampai pukul 6.30pm . memang sempat pun lah kann . so , it means , memang takde rezeki lah kita nak berjumpa ye kawan kwan . maybe next time kay ? insyaAllah :D

okayy . balik rumah Batang Kali . bosan bosannn ~ packing barang LAGI ! bosan bosannn ~ sampai rumah pukul 7pm . balik jempol balik pukul 2am . lawak kan ? dari selangor pukul 2am . so , sampai Negeri Sembilan pukul 4am . memang tak tidur lah kan . kalau tidurr , tak bangun subuh lahhh mawar elyssa . lain lah kalau ade orang kejut . ehh ? haha . takdelahh xD okayokayy . byee . nak sleep over rumah msAdraaa a.k.a miss17 . haha . okayy Athira Adra . meet you at Selangor :D 

okayy peeps . byee . Assalamualaikum . have a blast readers ! :'D